Krishna teases Bhadra
Neither completely unfamiliar, nor less familiar, but for Bhadra, we can also not say that he is well-familiar with Barsana. He is most reluctant to go to Barsana. He can’t even recollect, whether he has ever been there. But if one wife of his comes from Barsana, how can it be unvisited for him. Bhadra once asked Krishna- When were you married? Where time has no reach, where eternal conjugality prevails, such questions of “When did the marriage happen? Or “Whose daughter is one’s wife”, is weird by itself. But Krishna is so unusual that multiple contradictions can exist in him simultaneously. Barely does he answer things straightly- “When you got married”. He began to say- “I will tell Bhabhi that you have even forgotten you have ever got married to her.” Now is there a point in asking anything to this playful. But this is true, here the image of marriage is like that of a hazy dream. Even on being so, the unbounded reservoir of affection received not just by Vrishabhanu Baba and Kirti miaya, but also from the entire family of Nanda Baba can also not be forgotten.
Invitation from Barsana
Subala and Sridama keep insisting wanting them to be their guests and accompany them to their home. Their Baba-Maiya greatly insist on this. But by making many excuses, these invitations have to be turned down daily, because on the way towards the cow pasture (Gaucharan) and back from the forest, Krishna will prefer passing through the hallway of Vrishbhanu Baba only. Another route can also be taken, but as if he doesn’t even know of it.
Bhadra is reluctant to go to Barsana
The discussion of Krishna’s daily Nikunja Pastimes is not liked by Bhadra. With this reluctance he is unable to go to Barsana, because if they happen to encounter a sakhi of Lali, she won’t stop until she pulls Bhadra to Vrishnbhanu Baba’s chamber of women. And if he goes there, though, Lali may not present herself, but she will busy herself in his hospitality, and become tired. Has he come to tire people? Just like Dau, even Bhadra calls Sri Radharani “Lali” and calls her friends “Laali”. Lali and her friends respect Bhadra and are hesitant before him as they are with Dau. Sri Radha’s friends certainly speak with him. Though they speak in an extremely soft and slow tone, just speak 2-3 words and do away with it by moving their heads.
Bhadra describes Radharani (Lali) and her Sakhis
Bhadra says- “Lali doesn’t even know to speak. Even if we happen to meet her on the way, not just her face, she would even cover the nails of her feet, and like the red crawling insect of the monsoon rains, sit crunching herself. And if you ask her something, she will not even move her head. She will just sneak away and hide behind some Sakhi. And rest her head on her Sakhi’s head. You won’t even know whether she is whispering something in the ears of that Sakhi. On her behalf, that Sakhi will speak 2-3 words in an extreme soft and gentle tone. Lali only knows how to place her veiled face on the ground. It is bad to put her in such an uncomfortable situation.” Bhadra says- “These girls are very stubborn. Their heads have no brains. Their brains, outside their heads hang on their pigtails. If you pull their pigtails then their brain enters their head and then they become sensible. But Krishna alone is an expert in the art of pulling their pigtails. This work is not our cup of tea, and how can Lali’s pigtail ever be pulled.” These adamant girls with their ears, head and face covered, and their heads drooping low, will slowly say- ‘Come’, Where to come? Why come? nothing of that sort. If you enquire, no answer. As if they are deaf. It is fine, if you listen to her and get going. She will then sneak away, and vanish as if she has mastered the art of disappearing. In a little while, the crowd of welcomers shall gather. If not listening to her, give an excuse of an important chore, and promise to come another day, and would want to leave, she will move her body such that, it will become evident, that she is going to empty her tears today itself. Perhaps, these girls cannot digest their food without crying a few times, but it is also difficult to ignore their crying. She will slowly say-If you do not come, then your Lali will fire me from her services.” Poor, innocent Lali, cannot even shirk or scold a Sakhi, but what solution can be given to this crying woman. Quietly listen to her and follow along or come with her to tell Lali not to fire her from her services, but come. Which is why, it is best to keep away from Barsana. Krishna pulls all their pigtails and makes them sensible. Then they will not just start talking but also learn to fight. Then all of them bunch up together, and make him dance.
Krishna and Radha’s vision
Bhadra says- “I have seen Lali” Any Sakha can ask- “When did you see? How did you see? Bhadra’s answer is- “What to see in Lali Everyone say, she is just like Subala and even Krishna says, he has never seen Lali properly. Lali has to be like krishna only. How can our Krishna ever be seen completely? His palms, fingers, arms, face or chest, wherever the sight goes, it gets riveted there itself. How can anyone see his complete form in one glance? I doubt whether Lali’s sakhis would have ever seen her entire form.”
Radharani comes to the forest
During our forest pastimes, Lali many times comes with her sakhis. Sometimes we sport in the banks of Yamuna and carrying tiny pitchers all arrive to fill water, and sometimes carrying pots of curds, come to sell curds. Who do they have to sell curds in the forest? To the monkeys, deer, or the peacocks? Krishna is very mischievous. He deceives these girls a lot. He tumbles their pitchers or by snatching their pots, eats and distributes the curds. Very few among Sakhas join him in this robbery. Only the younger Sakhas tag along with Him. The girls fight with Krishna and hide their pots. Laughing at the young Sakhas they by themselves hand over their pots to them. Daudada, Madhumangala, the elder sakhas, and all of us get a share of the loot with all due respect. Many times some Laali would come and by herself would slowly place the pot in front- “You offer the Bhoga.” During times of such chaos, Lali looks innocent in her purest form. She would hide and stand amidst the Sakhis or sit crouching by herself. Where does she know to fight? If Tok comes to her and says- “Bhabhi, give curds”, Then, with great pleasure, she hands over the pot. She even gives the pot to Krishna. Where can she ever hide things? She knows how to give and only give. The forest pastimes, and water-sports, go on, the girls also stay in Barsana, and also in the chambers of Krishna and we friends. How does this happen, don’t apply your brains in vain.
Golok Dham is Chintamani Dham
This divine abode is Kaam-Lok. It cannot be possible that anybody here is lacking. Once the wish enters, the object is found present. And no one desires anything for his own self. There is only this desire- Krishna should be satisfied, let him be happy.